Another post of thoughts

It looks like it is for real. So... since last post things changed pretty. Got married and bought a house! Good news right? It was but now that has all gone to shit, much like everything else that has been happening. My wife is moving out at the end of the month and I don't know how to handle any of it. Going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow and I hope I can get put on something that will make me not feel like shit. Making it through the next few months is going to be so hard... and after the pain goes away I will still be alone. Even though I know being alone is something that I seek out when I'm with someone, the reality of truly being alone is setting in hard.